Good morning, sunshine …
To begin, a quote by Mary Oliver from a stirring article twitter brought to my awareness via Brian Pickings:
“It is six A.M., and I am working. I am absentminded, reckless, heedless of social obligations, etc. It is as it must be. The tire goes flat, the tooth falls out, there will be a hundred meals without mustard. The poem gets written. I have wrestled with the angel and I am stained with light and I have no shame. Neither do I have guilt. My responsibility is not to the ordinary, or the timely. It does not include mustard, or teeth. It does not extend to the lost button, or the beans in the pot. My loyalty is to the inner vision, whenever and howsoever it may arrive. If I have a meeting with you at three o’clock, rejoice if I am late. Rejoice even more if I do not arrive at all.” – Mary Oliver
2017 started in Taos, New Mexico and 2018 started there too. The months in-between were many … mostly midwestern, and very full. The times in Taos, though, have been enchanted beyond measure. Slower. Like honey and sun setting on high desert mesa. It is a true pleasure and a gift to have spent some time here to bookend a wild ass year. And don’t get me wrong – Minnesota makes up my bones. Taos might be some of the electricity in my neurons, though. Seattle is the rivers and canals of my blood.
Rewind to February 2016. It was the week before Valentine’s day. I was still married. I woke up and sat in our cluttered sun room / music room / cocktail corner and decided it was time to document my sexual assault experience in a song. I was assaulted in 2005, in February, in Miami, Florida, by my friend’s boss. It was only a few weeks after i had done a month long Artist in Residence on florida’s gulf coast. i was 25. I was so high on life and so excited to create. And then … I was violated. I kept that experience close to my vest for 11 years until that frozen February morning in Duluth when I wrote about it in a song.
Hi, dear music lover!
WOW it’s been an amazing 2017. I am blown away that it is nearing the end. I hope this note finds you doing so well, having a moment to take a deep breath or two or three, spend time with people and animals that you love, be in nature, be in the city, be in your home, be in your body.
I am above all super grateful that you have stuck with me, heard my songs and followed along, came to shows, supported my kickstarter(s), shared my music with friends, and yes, even listened on spotify (yes, I have come around to loving spotify. Follow here!)
As the Andrew Gold / The Golden Girls would sing,
“Thank you for being a friend
Traveled down a road and back again
Your heart is true, you’re a pal and a confidant
I’m not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won’t you stand up and take a bow”
What’s UP???! Hope your spring has been fruitful, or at least blossoming with much fruit to come. Cherry blossoms popped in Taos last week and then it snowed real heavy, blocking the mountain passes, knocking down tree limbs and making the trail along the rio grande mush mush mush! But there is springtime deep down in the dirt, like 8 feet of snow sings:
“heart so deep, so wild and strong
it beats so fast, it carries on
the heat sighs like a tired woman
rises through the cracks
brings whiskey to her lips
and sips and waits for the burn
like we all have to wait our turn
a new reason to move on with the hurt
there’s springtime deep down in the dirt”
Hi friend in music + living la vida loca,
How are ya? Holy bones, it’s the end of October. I don’t have a ton to blab at you today, just a cordial invite to a few shows in Duluth + Twin Cities and to let you know that I have changed my mind AGAIN and I am GOING TO RELEASE “MAJESTY OF BEASTS” 4 song limited edition vinyl album in MAY 2017.